It has taken sixty some odd years to finally regulate my emotions, somewhat. I was isolated for the sixteen years I lived at home while growing up. My brothers and their friends had their fun with my gullibility and while I looked up to them they took advantage of my meekness and misguided me. When I left home at seventeen to live with my boyfriend in a garden apartment in Rahway, NJ, it was like learning life all over or from the start. I didn’t understand a lot and school was depressing. Friends were hard to come by my entire life.